Saturday, February 27, 2016

End of February

Things are still pretty miserable...on thursday night we had his mom for dinner( my suggestion) . She stayed from 615p-930p.I spent my time ( not counting all the dinner prep and serving beforehand) solely concentrating on conversing with his mom politely and then watching him help her with something online for an hour an a half..then i went to bed early since i had to get up and watch my grandson the next day. He, on the other hand , as usual, didnt come to bed until 430 am.
Next morning he gets up at 11 am( before me) because he has to make a deposit he says. I get up at 12 and start getting myself an the house ready.To his knowledge my grandson is coming at 130pm. i tell him no, its at about 2.I reconfirm this at 115pm.So at 145, he gets in the shower and leaves at 5 of.I shake my head, when he tells me he will be about 45 minutes.I mean, WTF..he had all morning and , as usual, he leaves right when he knows my grandson is coming and knowing he will only be here an hour. my grandson was REALLY coming at 230p.i figured he would leave at 130 then and get back on time..but , no. Anyway, he gets back at 3pm.. fortunately my grandson was already here at 230pm and didnt  leave until after 4..BUT..the whole time my bf spends eating and on his laptop not interacting with him at all..as soon as he leaves, my bf goes out again.This time for another hour.

He also knows we are to have my niece overbite tonight who is 12. We are gonna take her out to Mexitaly for dinner and some live music at a place where lots of his friends usually hang out( so this was HIS suggestion). oh, and i forgot- he tried to get out of this also, saying he might have "business" to do around 6or 7 pm...ugh..

Anyway he does actually stay home but again, he spends his entire time on his laptop, not interacting with us at all.At the restaurant he mingles around leaving us to sit and after an hour and a half we want to leave but he insists on staying to hear this "one last song" so we do, go home and again he gets on his laptop ALL night..I decide my niece and i will paint, he doesn't even come out to say hi or make any conversation.Next at 10 or 11 i put in a movie, after about 30 minutes i say" are u gonna watch this with us or what?" He grumbles and puts the laptop away. Then proceeds to fall asleep several times in the first half hour. Mind you its only 1230 when i finally say something.Because on ANY other night he usually stays up till 430/5am, even if i go to bed.I leave him down here with her watching it and after about 40 minutes he comes to bed.I am mostly asleep so i say nothing. He sleeps as far from me as possible...no snuggling, nothing. In fact the whole time my family was here he barely says two words to me or shows any affection at a all. He ate like he doesn't even wanna hold my hand in the car like we usually do.

This morning he gets up before me and guess what? yup i come down, he is on his laptop. I watch what he is doing here  and there.. It's nothing important- just him deleting bunch of "favorites" on his list, then looking at guitars and apartments. He barely speaks to me despite my attempts at casual conversation.And here i am typing this in the other room since when i went in to sit beside him he ignored me. Has he come out to say anything to me? nope.

I just don't know what to do anymore.If i say something he explodes, if i don't he just continues to ignore me and be cold/distant.
I have been a "good little girl" for months now..doing what he has stated he wants in a woman , etc. Ive changed my whole life around.I feel like theres nothing left.

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