Tuesday, November 30, 2010

The "Moving Forward" Club

It's like the Stepford Wives.
In the past few weeks i 've had a mounting suspicion that my agency has been taken over by a strange force of nature .....
I first noticed it while sitting in our one office in the conference area , in between teaching classes. The doors around me were closed, but a few have glass panes that can be seen through. And by no stretch of the imagination are these rooms sound proof. So, I was not eavesdropping.
In fact, i was minding my own business when...
At first i heard the voice of one of our new "CEO's" get a bit stronger & louder. I looked up to discover the source and noted that he was speaking to an employee. I knew this person vaguely from a previous CNA class. I could hear one phrase being stated over & over by the CEO as the person (apparently ) was trying to defend themselves(i think).
"Moving forward..."
"Moving forward...."
Okay.Not too weird, yet.
Then i got a chance to meet the new CEO's who've ascended on our local offices in the last two months or so, including the aforementioned, in a private meeting concerning my role with the company. He & his fellow CEO's used it several times in that 1 hour.
Finally ,after a few weeks (& as i got a bit more comfortable with him in conversation-he really is a nice guy), he did my employee evaluation . Again, he used the phrase,& I just HAD to ask.
He swore it wasnt part of some company scheme, or a course they all took -moving forward 101- and he even laughed when i told him his colleague used it in a private, separate conversation with me, apparently astounded that they thought so much alike.
Okay...getting a little weirder, but i didnt really know these people for very long so maybe they just all ate the same batch of bad sushi or something .
But then.....(!)
Just this past week, my very own Excelsior colleague and friend, whom i have known almost since starting with the agency....someone whom i've studied with, worked along side, and shared personal stories and a lunch or two with....
Well, let it just be said, as I heard the phrase coming out of her mouth my whole world just sort of got foggy and blurry for a few minutes.It was as if i was in a time warp , or in an episode of The Body Snatchers.I could'nt comprehend it. I could barely breathe. So , of course, i couldnt ask her.
"WHY? WHY? HOW DID THEY GET TO YOU???"
Horrors.
Geeze, i'm dramatic,huh?
Anyway, i have to admit she actually said "going forward" but used a sweep of her hand to emphasize it, in much the same manner as the others. It's creepy.
From now on, i'll be watching.I'll be on my guard, too.
They're not gonna get ME!Bwaahahaha!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Crammin' it All in..

Well, i finally got through that awful shift at the hospital last night. It was my first one in a month. It was all that it promised & more. I was pretty much ok till at 630 (15 minutes to report- when we are all trying to wrap up labs, final charting, and chart checks, etc) i get a list of new orders related to a critical lab on one of my patients.It is pretty overwhelming to have to administer stat meds and get ready for report to 4 different nurses & 5 patients at the same time.
Anyway, it was just as before...on my way home my minds wheels were spinning furiously thinking of all the mistakes i probably made , all the things i didnt get done, all the things i could be wrote up for, and the unrealistic expectations. The worst part is the risk involved. I now know that i could not be a travel nurse in the hospital setting. I need to know my patients, know their meds & side effects, be able to actually "care" for them instead of completing tasks and caring for the paperwork.
Be that as it may - i now have 3 DAYS OFF!
I will be painting, cleaning, organizing, and planning...unless God tells me differently.
My office needs a good sweep (there's dried egg yolk on the spot beside me at the desk as i write).
My family christmas dinner is the 11th, so deep cleaning is probably a good idea.I didnt get to do much painting in the past week, but i am working on 3 paintings that i believe are very good.
I have advertised on Facebook the paintings i am selling (very cheaply!) to raise money for my missions trip..it was an after thought & i dont expect to really sell any, but i dont mind either way.
My husband suprised me last week with several wonderful canvasses ,and a giant acrylic/plaster work of an elephant that i have been eyeing for a year...i love it! I don't deserve the love Hubbs shows me..i really don't...
Ok , well there's my update...I need to get myself together for the day.
Namaste!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

In Reference To

turkey day! yay! cannot wait to eat at my moms, see my family and make mery! Hope ya'll have a good one!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Amature Night

I soon hope to add"amatuer producer & actress " to my resume...check out the clip of the video i made for vent training class!
video

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

As Promised

Ok, i know this is the 4th post in a row which includes pictures, but i usually limit them to 4, and i have previously promised to post recent paintings i have done.The first one here is actually the last one and it is done on "sustainable/green" media!I had run out of canvasses and working part time cannot afford to buys more. So i searched my home for a cheap or free medium to use in the meantime. I was about to give up & even went to the $ store & purchased 8 poster boards (2/$1.00) as a last resort...I have become obsessive about painting as of late). I decided to give one last look around the house and viola! In the back corner of my basement i found a whole box of drop ceiling tile we had left over from our previous home in Gettysburg that would never have been used for anything else. Quite possibly would have been pitched this spring when we will clean the basement.So now i have plenty of surfaces to paint!By the way though, the one here has been since painted over, i wasnt happy with it...and now have an even better one to post at a later date. Interestingly enough, i started posting my canvasses on Facebook and immediately had 3 people ask if i was interested in selling any of them..Weird. No name for the one above here, just a random experiment with my first piece of tile.It exists no more. The tile is quite absorbant and it takes a few coats to get the surface ready to accept paint similarly to canvas. I am experimenting with some sealers i have on hand to see if i can prevent that.
My rendition of a painting i saw on a wall in some home decorating magazine. No artist name was given..mine is slightly different, too.

This is called "They are still waiting"...3 ghosts watching at the window for a loved one.You have to look very close for two of them.



And finally "Rainbow Wave"...
Peace!


Monday, November 8, 2010

Tenessee

this past fri & sat. i visited my friend in Tennesse. She used to work with me as a nurse through the same agency and at another facility. She is due December 8th.Her house is located on a river in Surgoinsville. We mostly just went shopping and ate out for every meal since she didnt have any food in the house. She is till working and gets groceries only for herself as needed since her husband is always working away from home for months at a time.Very pretty this time of year there, even milder than PA. This is the bridge right outside her door
She has a brook on her property as well.

Even pregnant and with her husband away she takes care of 3 pigs and 3 Pitbull dogs by herself on their little farm property.


I look really old in this picture!ugh the crow's feet!Help!