Saturday, August 21, 2010

Unexpected Compassion

Wow...its been awhile since i blogged . In the meantime i have kept very busy with work.I was really hoping to be cancelled tonight but no such luck.oh well....counting tonight only 6 more shifts at the hospital before vacation. I still have lots of other work with the agency though.
I have been meaning to blog about a patient who has quite gotten under my skin...strangely enough ,he is the most unlikely candidate to do this.
He is an HIV positive patient.
I would have thought that i would have had such an aversion to someone with that diagnosis (unless it was a child).In fact, as far as children, i have always wanted to work with kids who have AIDS.They are truly innocent victims of the virus. My heart aches for them.
In addition to this diagnosis, and all that comes with it (he has had it for many many years) he recently took a tumble which made him and instant quadriplegic.
When he first came to us he was more than annoying...a self professed "Queen" he was demanding and a constant complainer. Everything had to be just so and he was on the call bell constantly.But over the time he has been there i have frequently been his nurse and i have become compassionate towards him and have even grown to care deeply for his situation.
Many mornings & evenings i have shed tears for him.
He is a vibrant , outgoing and as i have listened to his family members conversate with him i have been astonished at the love he has around him. But most of all what changed my mind about him was finding out that he raised his neice.He has a kind heart underneath of the sometimes rebellious behavior he exhibits.And, to be honest, who amongst us would not be angry and depressed about unexpectedly & suddenly nt being able to move from the neck down.
I believe many of us would be demanding, bitter, and unable to comprehend being dealt such a blow.
At any rate i do believe that his recent symtoms are suggesting he is moving into full blown AIDS. It is unclear whether his family is aware of this diagnosis. So it is doubly hard when we are asked questions about why he is having certain symptoms. All i can say is i will continue to pray and do my best for him as long as i am allowed and he is with us.

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