Sunday, November 29, 2009

Sweet Relief

A doctor at work says that alot of my medical symptoms sound like a toxic reaction to artificial sweeteners. A nurse was talking to him about her past events with aspertame poisoning. I started paying attention when i heard her describing symptoms that resembled my own- chronic fatigue, dizziness, etc. She said they did a brain scan that showed lesions & thought she had MS. After 5 spinal taps, another doctor checked it and said he thought it may not be.He recommended she stopped all intake of diet sodas, and other artificial sweeteners and within 4 months her symptoms were gone. But it took 5 years for the lesions to go away!She had even started having signs of a swelling brain stem(on an MRI) prior to figuring out what the problem was.
This doctor says it applies to ALL sweeteners(nutrasweet, splenda, sweet n low)with the exception of Stevia- possibly since it's an herbal extract.He says stick to sugar and gradually you will feel less need for the "sweet" taste, thereby reducing your intake of it.Apparently, using the sweeteners over a long time increases your desire for sweets.
So i stopped using it , it's been only a few days and already i feel 100 times more clear minded. I cannot believe it. Even my allergy symptoms seem to be lessened. Maybe it's all in my head, right?
I'm open to that idea. But i will let you know if i keep seeing any improvements...

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Eye-Opening Experience

I am actually watching the Thanksgiving day parade. What a blessing after a full week!My down time has become so precious.
I spent the week in a blur, wondering if i was going to make it through. One thing on my mind is the fact that i havent ran since saturday. I have a 5k to run december 12th, and i am getting worried i'll be panting like a dog!
Another thing i noted since starting work at the hospital is that so many have eyebrow issues, I mean, what is the deal with that? The arches are Cruella Deville high. Or they are plucked to extinction,or they are using some weird blue colored eyebrow pencil to fill in, or they have a serious werewolf unibrow.
I have no idea why i noticed this, but now i find i cannot STOP noticing it. I guess there's just too many in one grouping.
I am in the process of organinzing myself for supervisory visits. i have a full day of running around tomorrow.I truly need a planner by next week.And a file box. And folders. Right now i have a pile of papers (for both jobs).It creates more stress just looking at it.
Still struggling with allergy problems. And still dealing with a dog getting older & more senile.
I have almost finished the "Twilight" book series and am searching for a new series to dig into.
Other than that, no news.
But one thing i do know....i will be working hard not to let my eyebrows become the bane of my face.
Well, i hear Hubbs waking up so i better get going...only one day to spend with him til who knows when!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

..And a nice cup of hot Peppermint tea

A hot steamy bath.
A warm foot soak.
Cool cloth over my forehead.
3 tylenol,
a heating pad, and
a good book.
This is not a christmas list.
This is what it has taken to get me into bed for the past two days with a mind to get up & do it again the next day.
I wish i could say it has only been a 12 hour shift. But i rise at 4:30am & get home after 8pm.It leaves precious little time for anything right now...other than sulking & sleeping.
So please, pardon the interuption.
I am not ignoring anyone, or crapping out on my blog.
But think about a day of blood, mucous , vomit, and having your feet grow 2 sizes in two days and you may get the point.
I miss my time here... and again , i will be back...just a haitus......

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Adjustment Period

Well, i'm still alive.
Sorry if i havent been able to answer emails, etc. Just been extremely exhausted, trying to deal with the schedule change, the traffic, learning the new job stuff, and still do my regular fitness stuff.
I am realizing i need to re-think ALOT of things-dinner & lunch menus for example. I cannot afford to eat in the cafeteria(a stupid salad is like $8.00) and i havent had much time to even cook dinner on a regular 8a-4:30p schedule..it takes an hour then to get home. Plus, i am tryng to figure how to run SAFELY now because either end of my day is dark.Lotsa problems there- no shoulders on the roads i run, my hubbs reflective vest is too big, plus dogs in the dark=not good.
So i cannot begin to figure how to do anything other than eat a meal then go to bed on my 12 hour work days(which will actually wind up being about 13.5 with drive time).
And guess what?yes, more whining...
This is only the ONE job.
The other one is lots of driving , all over the place ,during the day when it's convenient for the family or the nurses or the agency, and who knows what else. Nothing like a regular shift..sigh...
But i know that i will be learning lots and someday, i'll make the big bucks....BUT

i think i'll just go to bed now...zzzzzzz

Monday, November 16, 2009

This Week

Went to visit my cute little 2 month old niece yesterday. What wasnt so cute is that after only 2 hours in the house with their dogs, it took me all night & all of today to get my nose unstuffed.
Well, could be that i had to spend a bunch of hours cleaning my formidable house today.
So , what?
I cant clean or visit relatives?
What deity did i p*ss off to get such a punishment? (Just kiddin there, God)
Anyway, i did manage to get in a 4.5 mile run. Great weather and i got to spray a vicious attack poodle. Two plusses for the day.
Tomorrow, i get to go visit a little girl i took care of (nursing) since she was 4 months old. Finally got decannulated and is healing in a hospital in Philadelphia.She's my favorite case..hands down! and even though it's great that we got her through these two years and she's all better, she will no longer get nursing- bittersweet, indeed.
And (drumroll, please) i start my training this week withn the hospital. So i wont be on any nightshifts.
In fact, my blogging may suffer during this time period, so please bear with me!i will be on a crazy ( and so far, unknown) work schedule. I have two jobs with my agency to schedule yet, and i have the one with the hospital.I am very nervous in so many ways...send prayers please.
I am also hoping being busy will ease my insecurities a bit.
It's been a rough year for me in that area and i cant pin down the exact reason. All i can do is hope i grow out of it!
Lately, i've been compensating for this awkward phase by running & reading. I actually finished the 7 books of the Harry Potter series and am on the 3rd book of the Twilight series. These have become escapes for me.
My friend keeps telling me everything is related to menopause( which i havent even begun to experience, by the way) including my sinuses.Maybe , though, my menopause started in High School , and that''s why i cant make friends with women...ha!
Later peeps!

Friday, November 13, 2009

The Porcine Connection

I dont know if anyone has noticed, but i live in this dinky little town of Dillsburg, pa...where we have just set a record for the # of earthquakes(specifically it's being called an earthquake swarm )reported in one years time...817.
This is nuts.
No one told me i had strangely moved to California by osmosis.And to think i have not "felt "even one .Many of my neighbors have, but i have been at work usually during the events...

that's my alibi & i'm stickin' to it!

Cheerily, however, some recent commenters on local news blogs/newspapers have shed some light on this, blaming:
1. the government digging underground tunnels ( as if Camp David needs to be extended into MY town)
2.2 different types of "incompatible " rock -are they getting divorced?
3. and, tonight, the large amounts of rain we've had this year-wet=faultline...what?
Now let me ask you folks...is this like the Bermuda Triangle Mystery?Do any of these sound like plausible reasons why, all of a sudden , this past year we have started getting earthquakes like this?
My vote goes for the underground tunnel. But then, again, i did see Elvis at the Uni-Mart last week...
Another, more troubling statistic i uncovered tonight...in contrast to the recently posted # of deaths related to the H1N1 virus in the U.S.(617), we are now suddenly at 3900 deaths in the U.S....hmmm...didnt they predict this would all blow over sometime last spring?The scary chaos continues.
And it's funny how many of the cases were first reported at the Mexican border.
I believe there's only one true explanation for all this.
Mexico is illegally transporting their pigs to Dillsburg via their extended drug tunnel network.
I bet they figure on making a quick buck selling pork rinds to.....(wait for it)
...yes, another statistic on news television tonight...
some of the 70% of overweight / obese Americans.
yep...it all makes sense now....they're definitely the cause of all this...;)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

A bikini pic was requested...

However, this is the only thing close for 2009..sorry!
Today was semi-productive.I had to get up early again to meet with our company exec to go over my new job description.It actaully sounds interesting. This one is the clinical management/ supervisory one. One the other hand ,
I STILL havent gotten my schedule from the hospital, despite several converstaions with the nurse manager. i even stopped in today (in person) to see if she could give it to me rather than wait for the email, but she wasnt working.
At least i was handed a card with her email address. I really need that schedule so i can get on with my planning.
Right now , i am at work. This house is freezing.The baby is nice & warm snug in her fleece onesie and having a heated, humidified ventilator attached to her being. But i am suffereing numb finger syndrome...so until tomorrow......;)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Back in it!

Well, i got a small response to my begging on facebook. i've been urged to see an allergist. two friends say it was the best thing they ever did. Unfortunately, my ENT did not give me that referral today. He says to wait & give it a few weeks or months. He says i have some inflammation still.I don't know. I think i'll wait a few weeks then ask my family DR. to give a referral.
Hmmm, no one on blogger offered anything.. .. of course maybe it's because i have so few readers !I'm not really into the whole "readership " game, nor am i creative enough to believe i could keep anyone interested even if i did get more readers!
Alas, it is just a glorified journal for me- to vent, exude, mourn , and record. But never to gain the love of internet readers. That's just too much like work!
But, on a positive note- the Dr. DID give me the greenlight to run again! So i went on an "easy" 3.5 miler today and it was BRUTAL. i was cramping and wheezing the whole last mile or so.i tell ya, taking only a week or so off just completely sets me back. Not to mention the pain meds, schedule change and lowered immune system having their effects.
I have confidence that i'll be back to my usual within a few runs.
Oh and Blase...just checking to see if you're paying attention...i like Kelly Ripa, and Kathy Lee as well.One is married to one of the most gorgeous men in America (that has to count for something!)plus she has the stamina to sit next to a crumudgeon every morning with a smile. And the other one , well, she tries real hard, smiles a lot, and wants the best for her kids- i admire those qualities in anyone!...so there!

Monday, November 9, 2009

Snort & Sneeze

ok.
i am gonna reach right out there and BEG for someone to give me some NEW advice on handling or curing my allergy symptoms.
By "new" i mean something that isnt listed by the Asthma & Allergy foundation of America, medlineplus,The american lung association, or any of the top 10 search related answers on google or yahoo search engines.
I have estimated that , every day(no, i'm not exxagerating)these are the things i do to ease my symptoms:(all while wearing a dust mask)
1.vacuum & sweep the tile & wood floors
2.wipe most of the kitchen & bathroom surfaces with clorox wipes
3. wipe 4-5 doorknobs with clorox wipes
4.groom the cats with brush & spray with dander/saliva remover
5. scoop cat litter
6.run air purifier on auto
7.use saline nasal rinse > 10 times during waking hours
8. blow my nose(uncountable times) with hypoallergenic tissue
9.use cough drops & a mask, plus vaseline on my lips while sleeping (because of dry mouth from only being able to breathe through my mouth).i also use a moist cloth over my eyes most of the time to relieve watery/itchy eye symptoms
10. wash my hands constantly, especially if i touch my cats

Total waking hours spent on relieving symptoms = 3-4 daily

weekly:
1. wash all bed linens
2. vacuum & mop all floor surfaces
3.research websites for ideas to reduce allergy symptoms

Total weekly hours spent on relieving sypmtoms(In addition to above)=4-5

Additionally:
1. i dont have any curtains, only mini blinds(which i replace once a year)
2. have very little carpeting in my home, & that will be removed in the next year or two
3.eat very healthy , exercise , and do everything i know to maintain a healthy immune system
4. do not allow smoking in my home
5. keep the dog in the basement, and rarely go down there( exceptt to deliver meds & check on her at times)because of the dirt, pollens & dust brought in through the dog door
6. and recently i had this surgery, which i think only made things worse
7. change my house filters FAITHFULLY every 3 months
8. keep cats out of the bedrooms
9. i have tried Allegra, Claritin, Zyrtec, Flonase, Astelyn, Vera Mist, and about 10 over the counter products-all make it worse

As you can see, most of my life revolves around seeking relief.
I am sick of being sick. I cannot figure out what the h*ll else to do and am truly frustrated. Tomorrow i have my follow up with the ENT who did my surgery. Hopefully he will refer me to an allergist.
Until then.....help?

Saturday, November 7, 2009

I'm Fine, Really.

Last night i agreed to go to a case that i really dont like and even stay an extra hour in the morning. Then my scheduler called & asked me to go there again tonight & would i work an 11 hour shift and she would pay me an extra $3/hr. Since i've been off for so many days i agreed, grudgingly.
Last night was not bad.The child was easy, slept well, etc.
Tonight i get here & , of course, i remember all over again why i hate coming here.
First the whole family was in visiting from out of state. They are, in fact, a lovely family & since i know them well they were very warm in greeting me. Then they stayed up drinking wine for a bit which was also fine.
At about 11:00 mom comes in and informs me that her mom is sleeping in her bed so she will be sleeping in bed with the child, in the same room i am in. ARRRGGHHH!I HATE that! It is one of my biggest pet peeves in homecare.
Do these parents know how uncomfortable it is for the nightshift nurse to have to try to do her thing when the parent is lying in bed with the child? Not only is trying to maneuver the kid more difficult, it is also extremely uncomfortable trying to be extra quiet to not wake the sleeping parent .(even though they insist it wont)Then you have to deal with being watched like a hawk while you do things (like eating lunch) because everything you do makes noise and wakes them, which in turn wakes the kid. Guess what the parent does when they wake the kid? they turn over & let the nurse deal with it.
I swear, never again.
As much as i used to like this family, i WILL NOT do this anymore. It's one thing when you open a new case and the parent does this for a bit. I can undertsand that- they are nervous and need to learn to trust you, plus they are really glad to have their kid home and want to be with them a lot for a few days. But i have been caring for this one for over 4 years. I've been on vacation with them, slept in their extended familys home, and driven their cars for Pete's sake.
Oh well, only another 8 hours...(teeth grinding).

Quick Update

So i am almost completely recovered.No more bleeding, no pain.
But i am still not breathing properlyy thru my nose so we shall see. i was told the surgery may not help, but i was seriously putting alot of hope in it.
The next step in the allergy saga took place tonight.We bought an air purifier. We may get another if it seems to be working, but those dang things are expensive!!After that we may buy a Roomba to be sure all the floor gets vacuumed before i get up.I will probably also see an allergist.
These darn pets are gonna bankrupt us. My dog cost us another $150.00 at the vets today & is on 3 meds now, in addition to stool softener, a vitamin , and glucosamine.We will be purchasing a new orthopedic bed for her soon as her old one is worn out. Phew!
No more pets. ever again!
Anyway, i am proceeding with the plans for my new job as well as pursueing another offer as a supervisor for my current agency. Both jobs will give me excellent experience and look great on my resume. I'm in for at least 2 years of it anyway before i can use the experience to get better pay. It's kinda like having a 2 years internship (like in med school) only it's self-imposed!
So thats's the news.
I'm considering another hairstyle change soon, so i guess that's on the horizon as well.
But at the moment, i'll just stew about not being allowed to run for another week.
Aloha!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

A better day!

Feeling much improved today!
Even though my nose hurts to touch it, it is no longer bleeding and i am up & about the house.
I was , after all, on the verge of getting bedsores!My back hurt so bad, i made it a point of getting up at 6am and staying on my feet mostly for a few hours.
The morning was pretty boring, and i even looked up my nose with a flashlight.Pretty yucky stuff, and i hope that the side they fixed will be clearer when the inflammation goes down.
My mom stopped by today with two of my favorite dishes!Banana pudding & Chicken Corn Soup!they were delicious & right on time since i got my appetite back just this morning!Thanks mom!
Also, i was offered a nursing position tuesday at the place i interviewed with. I will be working 12 hours shifts. The training is dayshift for 4 weeks then i go to night shift.This ought to be interesting over the holidays.
Another nurse just informed me that after several years with the same agency i work for she isnt getting any work and has had to go for a part-time supervisory position in the company-something she didnt want to have to do.
So i am truly glad i was offered this position. It may be difficult to adjust, but a job is a job in this economy.
My dog bite is also much better. You can hardly see it..yay!
On the downside of things, the Dr. said i cant run for 2 weeks. But i'm going to dicuss that with him a my follow up appt. monday.I just do NOT want to go that long without running, unless i absolutely have to.
Well, me thinks my husband is home so i gotta scat!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

The Bloody Nose

Well, obviously i lived through the surgery.
It was quite painful, and i am bleeding somewhat. I have pain meds that work well, but make me very nauseas.
I'll be in bed a lot this week.
So , thanks everyone for your prayers, and if anyone wants to come visit me i'll be here.
Love ya!

Monday, November 2, 2009

The "Morning of"

Well, todays the big day.
Going into that surgery . I am starting to panic a little about being under anesthesia.
Because i know that i will be intubated and last night, after a whole week of getting better & hardly coughing at all, i woke up in a coughing fit for about an hour.
Well, my little mind starting going into all the "what-if's" about that, like
"what if i start coughing while i'm under and the knife slips ?"
"what if , after the surgery, i start coughing and the pressure from it ruptures the surgical site?"
So if anybody out there wants to or is willing, please pray for me.
Darn it, i wont be able to run this week either!
I'm also a little concerned that they said i'll need to be off 4-5 days. I've never been told that with any other surgery.And i'll have pain meds. Makes me wonder how bad i will really feel.
Last night I went to the store and got a few snacks, and drinks, a book and 2 movies.I have a little fridge in my room so in case i am feeling awful, i can at least eat or drink without having to go up & down stairs.
Sigh.
Ok, i guess i've put it off long enough. Been trying to stay in bed as long as possible since i can't have my morning coffee, or anything to eat or drink for that matter.
So , i'm gonna drag myself outta bed now...and try not to think about breakfast...Later Gators!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

A word from the overly sensitive.....

Another day, another dog.
On an especially grueling run tonight, i had another encounter with the canine species. This time, it was on a new route, a backroad.Fortunately, i yelled twice really aggressively(gut reaction) and he turned tail & ran.I had my pepper spray, but thank goodness i didnt have to use it because after the fact, i tried to open it from its pouch and i had to pry it open with my teeth.Like that's gonna help while i'm being attacked.
Live & learn.
I transferred it out of its case and carried it in my hand after that placing my ipod in my zipper pouch.
When i got back home, i realized that the sensor to my tracking device had stopped picking up since it was in the pouch. Boy was i p.o.'d!
Stupid dog.
On a humorous side , though, when i told my daughter , she said"Geeze, mom....do you smell like bacon?"lol! She kills me sometimes.
Tonight was trick or treat in my neighborhood.I hadnt realized it was starting so early until at 6pm the doorbell rang. A gaggle of about 7 -10 kids were there so i put out a basket full and said "here ya go, help yourself"(my hair was still wet and dinner was on the stove). I went out about 15 minutes later and over HALF the candy was gone. Darn greedy varmits!after that i sat outside with it , doling out 1-2 pieces per kid, went inside for 5 minutes and the rest of it was gone. Less than an hour.I turned the lights out, and went in to relax.
The thing that bothered me most about this years Halloween was that most of the kids were'nt even dressed up, and didnt say anything (no "trick or treat", or even thank-you).It just aint like it used to be...i must just be getting old.
Plus , in the past few years my husband and/or my son was out there on the porch with me, this year both were working. So, i didnt dress up like i usually did either. Kind of a let down year. Oh well.
And, the family saga continues, but i'll not go into that anymore.
So, a good friend of mine told me tonight (and maybe this is why i have so many problems) that after listening to his story, i started talking about myself. Hmmm.Of course , i was offended.I had only started a few words of the response to his story when he said this, and i was only getting ready to relay a similar story (to share my agreement that people can be really stupid sometimes.)I mean, isnt this what a two way conversation sounds like?Maybe , i've been missing something.
Of course,just the other day he also insinuated i was getting the body of a 60 year old.I cant quote directly, as i would offend someone else.But here's my thoughts on the conversation bit:
If you talk about other people- you're a gossip.
If you talk about yourself- you're self -centered.
If you make small talk and generalities- you're boring.
If you ask ask alot of questions about the other person, after awhile it sounds like an interview.

So what in the world does one, do?
I thought about trying to have a conversation without using the word "I".
Try to imagine that.
I also remembered a few months back, when i started letting others carry the converstaion, while i just listened more. After about two weeks , the long silences and lack of new topics started getting the better of me, so that stopped.I felt obligated to fill the voids.On some occasions when i didnt, and just waited for the other person to continue, they abruptly stated they had to go.
I do try to be a lively conversationalist.Perhaps i should do recitations of Shakespearean drama, or practice from my "Anecdotes for all Occasions" book. Yes, i do own one.
Additionally, this friend also suggests that maybe menopause is the reason that i am so sensitive to things lately.
So here's the great picture i now have of myself:
1. I am fat & old
2. I am self centered.
3. My view on the world is altered because i'm getting closer to menopause.

Geeze...I guess i 'm just going to start wearing a shirt that says "I'm Insecure."
But, as a credit to the friend, he sometimes ends the converstation with "I love you"- the three words that make it all better...... right?